I hope you all are doing fine.
In case you haven’t noticed, I’ve not been posting much here in the past few weeks. There are many reasons, but I thought I’d write a bit and explain a bit why I haven’t been posting.
Firstly it isn’t that I don’t want to write. I enjoy taking words and moulding them into something that either makes sense, evokes a feeling or asks for action. I will always enjoy the creation of content.
Instead I’ve found it is difficult to write these days simply because I seem to lack in the “what to create” department. I’ve tried to write numerous times and given up because it feels like I am writing the same thing over and over.
Here is the truth. Looking for a job can be rather discouraging.
The simple reason is this. When I spend a fair amount of time getting to know a company and eventually come to the point where I feel like I can honestly say I would like to work for them… I go ahead and apply.
The responses, when they come, are often not overly helpful. “After reviewing you’re resume and portfolio, we’ve decided that we don’t have a place for you…”
While I totally understand that a company can’t hire every one who applies for the openings they offer, I really respect the ones who have taken a bit more time to say why I’m not a good fit for them. Those kinds of things are important to know.
There is also the sense that my life is kind of stuck on repeat right now. Every day is pretty similar. Look for jobs. Write cover letters. Apply for jobs. Work on trying to figure out some new piece of development. Write emails. Do marketing for the farm. Go to bed. Get up and do it all over again.
When most days seem pretty similar it really is hard to conjure up words to talk about things. Thats probably why most of my words sound similar when I do sit down to write new blog posts.
At any rate. I want to be sure I come across clearly here. I’m pretty stoked about the future. I continue to learn interesting things in this journey to finding a dev job – both about development and about myself…
It’s the not knowing whats going to happen next or wondering where specifically I’m going that gets a bit old…
Better days are ahead. I believe that.
Now let me go apply for some more jobs.